I_Simpl3

(I Cry For The Times That You Were Almost Mine,
I Cry For The Memories I've Left Behind,
I Cry For The Pain, The Lost, The Old, the New..
I Now Cry For The Times I Thought I Had You)

A life without scheming,lie will be more better..
Still remember what u tell me lastime,
I belive all ur promise,i reali belive..
At the end,our love is end
u leave me alone,even i cry,i hurtmyself,u wont care..
U just know how to blame me..
I just want a simple life

Sticks and stones may break my bones and tear my skin apart,
But nothing hurts me more than you,
Because you broke my heart.

Full of meaning

傻孩子，到现在还放不下对方吗，，

　　傻孩子，到现在还想着对方的一点一滴吗，，，

　　傻孩子，有些人、有些事、我们可能偏偏放不下，，，

　　傻孩子，我来给你做个试验：

　　你拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。

　　你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗？

　　知道我想说什么了吗？

　　这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。

　　

　　 　

　　傻孩子．

　　忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．

　　那些．都已是记忆．

　　缺失并不可怕．

　　可怕的．是无法面对．

　　

　　傻孩子．

　　你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．

　　付出了．他就会像柱子一样扎根在心．

　　不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．

　　绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．

　　那里．有你的理想．

　　 　　

　　傻孩子．

　　开始新的习惯吧．

　　习惯．每天一个人生活．

　　习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．

　　习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．

　　你逃不掉．逃不掉的．

　　那么．就勇敢面对．现实．

　　现实是．一切．画上了句点．

　　 　　

　　傻孩子．

　　勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．

　　这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．

　　这也是你．成长中的你．

　　这个你．正在逐渐死去．

　　新的你．即将重生．

　　寻你的路．你的未来．

　　你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．

　　做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

　　

　　傻孩子．

　　好．好．尽情发泄吧．

　　剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．

　　泄完了．就要振作．

　　看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．

　　还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．

　　所以．你并不孤独．

　　正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

　　

　　傻孩子．

　　别哭．别再哭．

　　不值得．真的．不值得了．

　　把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．

　　开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．

　　做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．



　　

　　傻孩子．

　　生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．

　　别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．

　　你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．

　　现在的生活．不是你想要的．

　　为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．

　　给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

　　

　　现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。

　　当某天，你被伤害，想起我。你就会明白了。。。。。。。。。。。





　　好好的对待对方是最好的，以后的时间是很长的，既然缘分让你们相交，记得珍惜。。。

　　そのときは　かのじょう　よろしく

　　送给还在坚持的人们，，，，，，，

　　有时候放手了，，，，

　　可能你就轻松一些了。。。。

　　记得要让自己高兴。。。。。。

Octorber_fullstop

Happen many thing between this few month..Finally i get the answer..
3 years between me and u,are finish..
I love u,but i love myself more..
U make me lost control,make me hurt myself..
My tear drop because of u everynight..
Waiting ur message,ur calling..
I just want ur care,want ur love..
I just can stand..but i m tired..
You are try to force me..
At the end,i can gv up everything..start my new life!
Dnt try to control me..u r not the 1..
And now i want to tell u,i m freedom

Charcoal-Sepetang

Around 12..I and Lisa goin do smth and having lunch..and go bek to her house,we keep chatting ..She 5 pm will sit bus go bek butterworth again lor..
Mei mei and Mr.Frog come and fetch me,we go eat at Panorama..Wah,so long din come d..My favourite"Panorama Fried Rice"..xD
Then we go sepetang charcoal factory find Ah Hi,and visit his factory..Today i oni know how to make charcoal,So difficult to do it..
Then we goin the "Taman paya bakau" c the tree,enjoy the natural environment.woo~~~Relax my mind...
Then we go eat the famouse Mee udang..hohoho..so expensive..Rm 11 per bowl..
Around 6 smth..we goin bek lor..Sepetang..byebye^^

My Mood Upside down again..

Today after finish school,waite aunty to fetch me..then send suzanne goin sentral..
Then having lunch v aunty..Then goin fetch pei ying,and anada goin Juno..They wanna dye hair..wah~~so jealouse...i cnt dye=(
I decide want do rebonding,cos my hair curly for almost 2 years d..quiet boring..wanna change new look...
But still thinking..
Today listen smth again,but choose nt to care..cos i need to face it everyday..i like to act stupid~~haha
Dono how to describe my feeling..so weird..
To be continue...

Thinking him again..Miss him..
Miss his hug..
Miss his love..
Miss his caring...

你是我要的吗？

我麻木了。。
我必须忍多四个月，很快我就会自由。。
你一直在原地踏步，而我的心已经被你伤了很多次，只是你没发现。。
我对你慢慢淡了，慢慢放下了，
我不再那么执作，天真去相信，
我是时候醒了，痛得醒了..

Lazy& Tired

I been lazy to explaine..
IF u are belive me,nonid i go to explaine..
A relation need a word..TRUST
U think who u are?
U think i will care?
Family..fren..even the 1 who sleep beside u..oso will betrayed u..
I m not stupid..
I know many thing..
I just use other way..
Dnt try to hurt me anymore..
all my scars was open..

狠狠的刺了我。。

你很狠心。。你的心机让我抖，怕得抖，，阿比告诉我时，我傻了，我知道阿比不会骗我，她说的一切我也知道，只是没想到你让我太失望了，真的太失望了。。
我不是没有反抗能力，我只是不想和你追究，幸亏我发现得早，起码我懂得保护自己，你一次又一次让我心痛。
我付出了多少精神，心思去让他们接受我，而你把我的梦都毁了，你为了你自己，你很自私很自私。
我喜欢做好人？我是首领？我洗她们的脑？我很假？我很奸？我骗她们。。全都是你觉得。。那你能还在我面前做到一百分，那么的美好。。
你在等机会，如果你看到我掉泪，你会快乐，那我告诉你，你没有机会和这个能力让我掉泪。
这一刀，让我醒了，让我痛了，让我长大了。。

Sunday..Hot..hot...

So siens t0day..yesterday overnite in mei mei house,sleep around 3 am,wake up 10:45..haha..

I need u all..

T0day no exam,so dint g0in school,stay at house d0in nth..mummy sick jor,need take care mum..
Suddenly s0 miss B..Ah B nw working..want g0 find her but sked kaocao her..want tell ah b.."I MISS U"
Nw sumetime i at school i will think bek if ah b and madu study v me 2gather ,sure vr gud and happy..nw juz leave me alone..the feeling are nt same...
Sometime i oso will boh song ah b..but i will tell her,wont keep in heart..she will pujuk me ..
Lastime i 0s0 will jealouse she gt ah kiam then dowan me d..but impotant is she hang fuk mah~~haha..juz i simply think geh..
D0no ah B future will go wer leh?Hopefully dnt go s0 far..i will miss her...
Although we nw din awes c each other,but many thing wan shared v her...Madu oso g0in Kl soon,but lucky still hv Jayson take care her,gambathe..
anada,awes ma fan u t00..haha..paiseh...u faz faz go take lisen lar..and b a gud teacher..
I Miss the time schooling v u all..Anyway thx ling,da,zhen~~

面对你们，我不需要假假，不需要戴面具，没有怀疑。。谢谢你们.

伪装

我不快乐,我真的不快乐..但我没勇气说出来,常发生了某些事情,我怕得脚都站不稳时,还必须撑强说:没事"..其实很想告诉你们"其实我没有你们想像中那么坚强"!!
我装得很辛苦了,我几时会打电话跟朋友求救,几时会求别人,几时会需要朋友陪..我都能一个人..
就算全世界人都不认同我,我也是过得好好的.我知道上天是不公平的,我接受这一个事实.
当外面的人批评我时,请了解我才判断我..
我只是不懂表达,我不喜欢你们的同情,别伤害我就好,我只是要平凡.
收藏了太多太多的秘密,我很辛苦..
我要装到几时..
如果我有一次机会,那让我任性一次..
只有你懂..

wonderful nite..26-4-1010

Yesterday nite..so suprise that honey can attend the party,mayb she know she ill goin penang work soon..although she are sick stii come over here..
Around 5 smth i help them to prepare but i cant help anything at the end..haha...just keep kacao them..Anada act like chef 1..oh no~~
8:00..start our meal..

A new day~~

7:27am i oni reach school.oh shit,i m late...yesterday sms v my didi la,so sleep late..wake up late..=)
Today have assembly..so boared..when teacher talking on the stage i keep chatting v suzzanne and poh lui..we tok manything..especially about the pink panther..yii~~
Dono y i v suzanne have many thing to chat,i love her so much..she such a good fren who always teach me thing and caring me...muacks..
Tonite will goin my bear house having gathering,enjoy chochalate steamboat..wow,so yummy..have grapes,apple,banana and strawberry and ice-cream..thx for preparing frm my anada and xiao yi..
Waiting for to9 so that can chat v my beibi ling..but madu zhen nt in..but we will miss her..hope she faster recover...
Now faster go bath..wanna hang out lurh...

So warm~~

Queit long din update my blog...
Last time when i write blog when i m sad..
haha..but nw i will update my blog when i m happy...
Today is sunday..A very free day,i can sleep..eat..dream..on 9..
Today 'she'know i m cough ,she will take the herbal drink for me..
Every time i m not feeling well,she will treat me vr good..dono y..
Last time i was sick,she cook porrige 4 me..i feel so touching..So sincere she treat me..
U know i am talking about u..My dear...